September 22, 2005
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DOCTORS!
Me: Well, Doc, here's all the reports from pathologists, MRI analysts, Oncologists in Maine, what do we do now?
DR: Hmmmm, this will take some careful reading and study. I'll have to think about this... I sure can't do anything this afternoon. I'll have to send for the slides.
Me: Of course not. Will it require major surgery? Hospital time, What?
DR: Well, the oncologist says it's probably localized in the skin. I've only ever seen one other case like this (involving leiomyosarcoma) and I'll have to study up but I'll probably do a "slow Mohs" (several operations and skin grafts) I'll get back to you.
So I sit and stew. I could be sitting and stewing in the cool comfort of Maine. It's going to be in the 90's and wet here for the forceable future.
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Ugh. Nothing worse than not knowing what to do. You feel like doing something - but can't. Worrying doesn't help, but it's what I do most often
I have had a weird nerve problem for over 5 years now. Many doctors, chiropractors, MRI's and x-rays later, I have given up finding a diagnosis. I just accept that it's something I live with. It could be worse. I am not in constant pain, I am not immobilized - so it could be much worse. Most importantly - it's not progressing. I can't run anymore - and that part bites - but at least I can do other vigorous exercises.
Yeah, someone would have to run my little wedding paradise
I dunno - it's an idea. T really wants a large property anyway - we just haven't found, 'the one" yet. It's just an option 
I am sure I will keep it in the back of my mind. If that idea does come to fruition, I will prob spend a few years developing it, and during that time hopefully find someone capable of running it.
Realistically, it won't happen. It would just be fun
Planning my wedding with my ex would have been so much more fun if I didn't have to be the bride. I realize that sounds funny, but the most dissapointing thing about my wedding was not getting to be in the audience when I walked down the aisle 
Lots of girls say they want to be wedding planners after they plan their own wedding - the thing is, I was actually really good at it 
Yeeouch, I'm really sorry to hear about your scalp ... but you say it'll be ok right? Minimal risk surgery at least? Well I hope it goes well and all is cured, cause I'd hate for it to go badly ... I like your posts too much
On a slightly less heavy note: I'm sorry you had to cut your time in Maine short ... I know how you feel, I'd far rather be in Maine than Florida this time of year ... but I would probably extend that to any time of year, but that's me, and I digress. On the bright side, as you said, it has been an amazing summer so far. You've been doing this trip to Maine for the summer for 35 years? I have to say I am impressed. There are times when I sit around and I think, wow, I'm getting older. Usually right after I've told someone that I've been doing X for 10 years (since until recently I was never able to say anything like that) ... but 35 years is much more significant ... I'd love to hear some of your stories. Which reminds me, I hope the surgery goes well, so you will continue to accrue yet more stories.
I wish you only the best.
-Aldo